The Roller Coaster Ride

Let me preface this by saying that I only want the best in this situation.

What a hell of a week.

I was speaking to the NG's tonight and NGC ( ok...Cindy) said , having been through this for a very long time with her own recently passed father that this is a roller coaster.

The highs and lows are not that graphic but this is the way it feels.

I need to get my work filters back in place.

It's harder than hell when you get the calls at the office not to freak out.

I am not the sort of person who can hide my feelings from my face.\

I can't lie worth a tinkers damn .

It's all right there.

But, I cannot function as I need to with out putting the stops in place.

No, Mother is not worse.

In fact , there has been enough improvement that they have moved her from ICU to a private room.

Will she go home ?

I can't answer that.

Will this go on ?

Indeed.

My husband is exhausted, physically and emotionally.

I am letting him do what ever he wants.

Sleep is a big issue right now for us.

This situation becomes a moment of episodes...and we are living between them.

We are trying to desperately re-establish our routines to try to hang on.

Other than here, I will have the filters in place.

Thank you all from the bottom of our hearts who have said prayers, kept us in your thoughts and who have been here.

A huge hug to Lady L.

Blessed Be.

Have a great week.

Ciao,

Aunty Pol