Thankfully I have managed to survice the stomach virus from Hell. Rarely has a shower felt so good. The back is still stiff from all of the rack time, but I can take a Tylenol for the aches and pains , the body gets/demands what the body needs. SU was very sweet about helping police the joint and other than that , not hovering over me. He knows that I cannot abide that in any way and did the bare minimum of checking up on me. Right now he is making Jalapeno chiggin, which mentally sounds just yummy, the stomach is going " Oh hell no." I'll let him enjoy and if I need to eat , there is always scrambled eggies . I am one of those to my SU's ever lasting lament who must be forced to eat when I am sick ....I just won't do it .
Other than that, it's been a very peaceful day, it is getting easier in a lot of ways and I guess that is the way that we get through things . Do I miss him, oh more than I can say. Did I fall apart ? No, not even a little bit. This may change from one year to another, but for now I am as content as I know how to be . Has it been a struggle, oh in more ways that I have the energy to list here. Has it been worth the struggle, yeah. Am I going to be okay ?
You Bet Your Ass I am.
Happy Birthday Daddy.
Have a great week.