Happy Friday y'all.
Gah...that sounds soooo weird right now , all things considered.
Gordy is at his fathers now, I guess taking care of all of the loose ends and such.
He is staying busy and helping out with what ever he can...his nature after all. I have been okay for the most part...until I saw the birthday card from his father....and I flat lost it.
I guess I needed to.
This has been such a long road for all of us.
You go from the point of maintaining things...periods of calm where there are no new issues so you plod on.
Then things happen...new cancers, heart issues and you come to grips with the fact that the roller coaster ride has begun...until the next period of calm waters.
You can't place a lot of faith in the calmness even though you are in many ways profoundly grateful for it...you can't take the risk of losing sight of the larger picture.
You try not to become angry with family members who are under the illusion that she will get better and it will all be okay. There is no better in the cancer lexicon.....and then you realize that we all have different coping skills and no one way is right or wrong...we all have the path we choose.
In the end...time is all we have.
Time to wait , pray and become our own little island in the mist of chaos.
Again, thank you all so much for the love and support..it has been an amazing blessing and I do not ever use that word lightly.
We love you all.
Janie and Gordy and the Grand Katz